My friend Brianna is an amazing human, book club leader and social worker. I adore this human. She is now on her 154th day of sobriety and having her as a part of my sobriety journey has been immensely inspiring for me and has helped me learn a lot about myself and my own relationship with alcohol. Here's her story in these early days of navigating an alcohol-free space.
My name is Brianna and I have been sober for 144 days.
I decided to become sober in February. It was not one night or one experience that motivated me to make the change. It was a series of nights, a cycle that I seemed stuck in and that affected the one closest to me. Something I learned very quickly when I became sober is that people ask questions. "What happened to make you sober?" or my favorite, "Did you even have a problem?" These questions typically stem from curiosity or concern or both. When you become sober after a dependency on alcohol, there can be a lot of guilt tied to your past. These questions and the desire to qualify the decision perpetuate that guilt. What I am (slowly) starting to learn is that I do not have to qualify my decision. I do not have to go into detail about what my experiences were and I do not have to continue feeling guilty about those experiences. There is value in just making this decision for myself first and working towards forgiveness and reconciliation second.
This has led me to make other decisions for my health and well being with the motivation of loving myself.
It's an act of love given to me by me and that's powerful.
It could be going for a walk, doing yoga, spending time with a close friend, having a night to yourself, buying that new outfit, because admit it…you look good! It could be going to therapy, processing with other sober friends or reaching out when you need support.
Practice and nurture self-love, in whatever way that manifests itself. You deserve it.