Happy New Year.
I'm going to share my lists of 2016 gratitude and 2017 intentions here in a sec. My NYE was dreamy! Oracle cards, witchy tea (like, seriously meant to give you wild dreams), my favorite cheese, fudge, glögg (which is like a mulled sparkling cider), water, and really really really delightful friends. We also made three lists - one list of things we cherish from 2016, one list of anxieties/ angers/ resentements/ negatives from 2016, and one list of intentions or things to look forward to in 2017. I ripped up the list of negatives into little tiny pieces and let myself really focus on the concentrated feeling of . . . ripping. Not a violent act - but just very definite. I'm ready to leave old resentments behind. We thought about burning them, but didn't really know how to faciliate a contained fire. Maybe next year.
As far as drinking goes, I'm happy I wasn't drunk. I often work on NYE, as I've mainly had bar or venue jobs. So I'm usually not totally toasted. But I do remember in maybe 2013 having a really regrettable NYE. Full of FOMO and worrying about if some dude liked me or not and sending passive aggressive texts about it. That's kind of what alcohol does to me ... puts me in a stupor where I fixate on negativity and want to be somewhere else. Not drinking on NYE made me feel very present. I was a little sleepy and a lot full of food. But I was grateful and so so happy to be where I was. That's a huge difference for me. Alcohol makes me impatient and dissatisifed and needing more more more. It was easier to not drink on NYE than Christmas holiday stuff. It was really lovely, in all honesty.
Without further ado.
Looking Forward to 2017
Not going to list my anger + resentment list. Because I ripped that shit up, and I've let that shit go.