Sobriety-wise. I feel really confident and supported and grounded. I've had a few different people reach out to me, feeling shaky about their current relationship with alcohol and I've been able to talk them through some stuff, or at the very least been able to offer support. Like. Hi you will have at least one sober friend, whether you want to try it for a month or for forever. And that's been really fucking cool and humbling! To feel as thought I'm someone people know they can talk to. This also relates to people feeling comfortable talking about meds and mental illness with me. It just feels so good to acknowledge that we are all humans and deal with this stuff and we should TALK ABOUT IT and support each other. I am really eager to explore how to engage with other sober people in my direct community (in AA or otherwise) to potentially create safe and fun events that allow for meaningful conversations or meditation or I don't even know what. But I think that would be so lovely. One of my sober friends (from Instagram) in the UK does an "alternative Saturday night" event with tea + cake + yoga + meditation. WHICH SOUNDS SO FUN. I would love to gauge the interest. I'm gonna see if anyone on Facebook is interested and go from there. Facebook is sometimes semi-easy crowd sourcing.
Yay. I'm glad I decided to write about all that stuff first. In the bigger picture, things have been going pretty good. I've just been boggggged down by depression lately. It's a fucking monster. The pervasive negative thoughts are just. Very bad. I am trying every day to shut that shit down. Mantra: I hug myself, I love myself.
Steps I'm taking to fight the depression monster:
1) Going to two meetings in the next week!
3) Committing to daily journaling and blogging
4) Work out and/or yoga 2-3 times
5) Zine ideas
6) Gauge interest for a sober event
7) Less social media time
8) Wake up early!