2 months sober. Hell yea! Today my friend told me that he hoped I was feeling okay sober-wise. And it took me a minute to think about. I definitely feel happier and more like myself, but I still get caught up in the thought of like... I've been tapped out and I'm sitting on the sidelines. I know it's not based in reality. It's more like a FOMO thing. Or like, I'm fucked up and not mature enough / capable enough to handle my liquor. So, idk. That's a weird way to think about it. Especially because that's not how I view other sober folks. I admire them greatly and think they are badass af. Just the lil creeping negative thoughts are reserved for myself.
That being said, working working working on self love. All the time. For now I will keep doing what feels good day by day. Thankfully that includes not drinking. So happy to have hit two months. Time is flyyyyyyyying by.