Day 53 was pretty good. We had a big lineup announcement at work for a festival that's happening this summer, so that kept us pretty busy... with copywriting and setting up advertising audiences and making sure we have content in all the right places. It's FUN to be busy at work and engaged.
I didn't make it to the gym, but I did watch a movie with my roommate and her boyfriend, which was nice! We watched The Sixth Sense (which I've never seen before... I know, right?!). It was kind of hilarious to tweet about it and just own up to being 18 years behind popular culture. Spoiler alert: Bruce Willis is dead the whole time.
I felt VERY anxious about not drinking on my upcoming trip to California. I posted about it on my sobriety Instagram and I got a LOT of good advice. I think the important thing to remember is, like, not getting caught up in the anxiety of WOW I HAVE TO BE SOBER FOR SIX DAYS ON VACATION! It's easier to think about if it's just, like, okay. I'm having a pleasant time. I'm sober right now. I'm making little by little choices to be sober. Oh wow, six days flew by and I was sober the whole time. Aka the day at a time mentality.
THANKFULLY. I have therapy on Thursday night (and I leave on Friday morning) so I think I can have a really productive conversation with my therapist and give myself all the tools to succeed. I am EXCITED to see the ocean. And dance with my friends. And do some outdoorsy stuff in gorgeous weather (it's snow city here in Des Moines).
Ugh. I'm glad I sat down to write. I am feeling very positive and capable. Working on not being defined by sobriety.. er, how do I explain this? Like, I'm not going to have a good time *despite* being sober. I'm going to have a good time and be present. And being sober allows that. It's a change of mindset and perspective. Also, all the friends I'm going to see are supportive af and cool as hell. It's gonna be so good.