Another good day. I wanted to drink tonight but I didn't. Went to a friend's holiday party and just had diet soda. Left around 11ish but I know that drinking me would have shut down the bar with my friends. I might have stayed later if I didn't work tomorrow. I don't mind being sober but I kinda feel like a kid or prude still. Ultimately I don't care that much what other people think of it. I'd rather feel good and not be out of control. It would be nice to let loose and be less anxious, without the help of a drink or whatever. It's kind of hard to flirt when your inhibitions are all there. I guess this is growing up! I think the more I work on my anxiety, the more I can just naturally let loose and feel comfortable.
I know this is murky because it's not legal everywhere, but do any of you folks with drinking problems have a policy about weed? Again, it's murky depending on what state you live in. My blog and project is specifically focused on not drinking alcohol but I am curious about how weed comes into play for others who are battling addiction. Hearing others' experiences has helped me so much in all of this. I feel more supported in the last 44 days than I have in my whole life, for real. It's wild.