I feel good today! I'm kind of behind at work but I can catch up tomorrow. Looking forward to volunteering tomorrow night, too. Annnnd, I have things to look forward to this weekend! And then going on my trip early next month. I feel happy and tingly and excited. Just riding the wave of feeling good while it lasts.
Group therapy was good tonight. It's like an hour and a half of empathy. I love my group ladies. I care so much for them and am rooting for their happiness so hard. It's such an unusual relationship dynamic, one I've never encountered before. I'm so grateful for my therapist for helping me figure out how to be honest with myself and for inviting me to join group therapy.
I still wish I could be "normal" and not have drinking be such a taboo for me. Right now I can kind of hide behind the year long project but I'm afraid that after the year I'll have to DTR (define the relationship, lol) and come out as an Alcoholic. I don't even know if I truly feel that I am. I'm still confused. Unsure if moderation will ever be possible for me. For now, my heart is deeply invested in this project and my one day at a time mantra is keeping me sane in more ways than one. Grateful. Thank you for reading. ❤