Very close to my original goal - one year without alcohol. This is the longest I've put a concerted effort toward anything in my life and it's pretty incredible.
I am working on making a moral inventory and kind of going through self-forgiveness. I have a lot of shame about how I used to act when I was drinking – and my therapist has talked to me about how to navigate that. With my self talk, I'm then able to say to myself - "You were doing the best you could with the tools you had at that time." And focusing on having regrets rather than shaming myself. Sure, I can regret a past behavior and work toward not engaging in behaviors like that moving forward. But for me, my instinct is to beat myself up and spiral down into why that behavior is indicative of all the reasons I'm not deserving of love. I go in waves where I feel connected and my shame is dissolved but when it comes back - it baffles me and hits me hard.
Very very focused on spirituality, living with intention, keeping depression at bay. I still have really low moments but it's quicker to bounce back.
I get asked a lot... if I'm going to start drinking again after a year passes. I have no way to be certain and I know relapse is possible. But I do know that I have today. I plan to continue on this journey one day at a time. It's been amazing so far and I can only imagine how much better it will become if I keep working on myself.