The most important things I do all day:
1) not drink
2) focus on being present
I still have a very hard time coping with the concept of an ex not caring about me anymore. When I was with my ex, I was feeling pain from a PREVIOUS ex’s rejection. I’m coming to understand that it’s more of a cycle of codependent tendencies, rather than an emphasis on any individual. It has virtually nothing to do with wanting to be with them, more just feeling insecure about perceived rejection or loss. Even losing people who abused or abandoned me gives me great pain, presently, if I think too hard on it. I have to make a conscious effort each day to stay present. Live in the moment. Deeply accept the reality of right now. Right now is so beautiful. I want to be open to surprises and love and hope and trust. I trust the universe to bring good things.