Learning how to process and heal. I've been dealing with self image / self esteem issues lately. I'm at my heaviest and relearning how I talk to myself, my relationship with food and my relationship with my body. Not drinking alcohol is a huge thing in self love but it hasn't brought upon weight loss for me, which a lot of folks say happens in their experiences with cutting out alcohol.
I am not going to "require" myself to lose weight. I'm simply going to make healthy lifestyle choices a priority. And I'm going to try to listen to my body and feed it the nourishing food it wants. I don't believe in a lot of diet industry things. Or food industry things.
I found out about the passing of my former boss today. Really bummed. He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in January and now gone. I went for a walk today and tried to just really really notice the sun and the crunch of leaves and my dog's smile. It could all be over in a moment. I know that sounds cheesy and sentimental but my heart is aching a bit and I think he'd want me to enjoy little moments and find the beauty. Memorial will be in November. It will be good to hug friends and tell stories.
List of priorities for the week
Make an apple crisp
Make a soup
Tell people I love that I love them