I dunno. Pretty bad anxiety lately.
Been dwelling on the past a lot and feeling inadequate or like I've made a lot of wrong choices. Not feeling very strong in my sobriety - my closest AA friends are not around anymore and I feel kinda lonely in it. I feel like I still have so many reminders of my last romantic relationship and every time I have a set back in any capacity - I go back and dwell. I think that if I wouldn't have messed up that relationship, how everything would be so much better. If I hadn't moved back to Iowa. If I hadn't pushed that person away. I know I'm strong enough to move forward but it's really easy to fall into doubt.
I'm gonna try to focus on the positive. Focus on gratitude. I am more than my past decisions and I am making huge progress every day. Keep repeating it until it manifests.