Trying to stay focused on my inner child / my own sobriety journey. Been very distracted and upset by some stuff going on with friends and family. I am definitely ruled by my emotions and heart, so when I'm upset about something - it's pretty all-consuming. I'm trying to write something eloquent about how I feel more self-aware now about how my drinking impacted others, but it's hard to put into words. I think it's just a new experience to be the sober one, trying to help someone find peace/sobriety. I've always been on the other side, and for so long I refused to believe I had a problem. I don't know if I was really offered proper help but I sure as hell know I would have denied any help that came my way. I wasn't ready and I wanted to stay numb and stay in chaos. I'm not saying that's the case with my friend. And I don't want to be too harsh on my past self. But there's a lot at play, for anyone who struggles with addiction / substance abuse.
I am definitely getting more in touch with my spiritual side. Just trying to ask the universe for help. For peace. For serenity. For my friend. For me. For so many others who need stability and calm. Learning to let go, little by little.