Still processing. Got a lot of food for thought today and yesterday. Some folks from my 12 step program, IRL and the IG sobriety community all reached out to me with really good feedback on what sobriety means to them / how abstinence from alcohol and weed are alike and different. I pretty much decided I'm gonna just chill on everything until I talk to my therapist, who is an addiction counselor. It's really liberating to be like "hmmm. I need to gather more data. I want to make an informed decision with my whole heart."
Otherwise, I am feeling pretty good overall. I am really interested in spirituality and have been reading A Return To Love by Marianne Williamson. She examines A Course In Miracles and dives into how we focus on fear and reject love. It's really thought-provoking reading and I've been copying down excerpts into my journal. It's a little bit cheesy to me at times, but I'm trying to accept the reading with an open heart and just take the bits and pieces that resonate with me and leave the rest.