Woke up this morning with my mind set on loving me. Jamila Woods mantra. Repeat it, believe it, love it, feel it.
I had a pretty emotionally intense day, which is sometimes the case on Tuesdays because twice a month I have group therapy and AA on the same day. I have been realizing lately through my inner child work stuff and therapy stuff that I have a pretty deep fear of abandonment. So I'm trying to work through that and acknowledge it as a core wound on which I need to focus time and attention.
I did some random research online tonight about fear of abandonment, and this stuck out to me. The most effective way to take responsibility for your fear of abandonment is by making contact with the deep sense of love and connection within you. By relying on this inner resource, your need to cling to others will lift. Will it disappear? Probably not. But it will get much better. And this is something I'd already been practicing – before I had the language for it.
Thankful today for sobriety because without it – I don't believe I'd have the mental clarity to deeply work on this stuff. So so grateful.