I am sleep-deprived because reasons. I felt like I had a hangover all day. I still wonder how many times I thought I had a killer hangover when really I just stayed up partying or doing whatever nonsense until late and then woke up super early. Cuz I maybe got 3-4 hours last night and wow I'm hurting. Like, my whole body is just like... nah dude this isn't working for me.
Most important thing moving forward for me - learning how to cope / deal with things in the context of sobriety. I keep realizing that I have to unlearn behaviors. At the core, there are choices and actions and drinking exacerbated it all. Take the drinking away, there's still the poopy stuff there. I feel optimistic though. Through therapy and AA and genuine friendships, I feel like I'm creating a solid foundation. I feel so grateful. And also tired. Because reasons.