Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Yeah. So I have a lot of work to do. My therapist and I decided I should get an inner child doll and start working hard on loving myself / protecting that inner self.
Basically something that happened this week was deeply painful for me, and my therapist said I was triggered in a way that made me abandon myself. This may all sound like therapy jargon - but the bottom line is that I have some serious stuff to work on. I wasn't gonna drink on this night I was triggered but I wanted to. Like really bad. Or at least I know that old me would have drank to black-out-excess to deal.
I've also been on the verge of tears all day, re: the health care bill. There's a lot to feel sensitive and scared about rn, on a national level. As a human. And especially as a human who cares deeply about mental health and mental health resources. But also just as a human. Period.
I'm a little emotional. I just wanna be better and help more.