Coming up on another month. Starting to settle back into day-to-day life. Mission Creek (the festival I went to) kind of knocked me off kilter, a bit. I need to set some goals for the week and try to stay present. I have a LOT of reading and studying I want to do. Gonna need to cut down on screen time to make that happen.
And, my journal has been untouched for two weeks. Although I did find time last Sunday to write some songs and the week before to write some short essay / poem type things. So! That has been really great and cathartic. Gonna pick back up with my daily bullet journal – it always feels good when I commit to it
Today I did laundry, cleaned a bit, got some household items at the store, hung out with family, napped, ate soup. I feel a little bad because I was kind of outwardly stressed/irritated with my family today and I was a little bit more of a diva than I meant to be. I am less scared to be vocal when something upsets me lately, which I think is good. I don't necessarily think I was a jerk, but... I don't know. I have guilt issue things. I want to be vocal about my feelings without being The Worst. I was able to bounce back but I got very overwhelmed for a minute. A similar thing happened on Saturday AM when my family didn't pick me up on time. It made me very upset when I felt like I wasn't kept in the loop / being communicated with. I'm glad I can feel feelings but I guess I want to let things go more easily and be more okay going with the flow. It's all a process.
Tomorrow is four months. I feel really proud.