Very close to my original goal - one year without alcohol. This is the longest I've put a concerted effort toward anything in my life and it's pretty incredible.
I am working on making a moral inventory and kind of going through self-forgiveness. I have a lot of shame about how I used to act when I was drinking – and my therapist has talked to me about how to navigate that. With my self talk, I'm then able to say to myself - "You were doing the best you could with the tools you had at that time." And focusing on having regrets rather than shaming myself. Sure, I can regret a past behavior and work toward not engaging in behaviors like that moving forward. But for me, my instinct is to beat myself up and spiral down into why that behavior is indicative of all the reasons I'm not deserving of love. I go in waves where I feel connected and my shame is dissolved but when it comes back - it baffles me and hits me hard.
Very very focused on spirituality, living with intention, keeping depression at bay. I still have really low moments but it's quicker to bounce back.
I get asked a lot... if I'm going to start drinking again after a year passes. I have no way to be certain and I know relapse is possible. But I do know that I have today. I plan to continue on this journey one day at a time. It's been amazing so far and I can only imagine how much better it will become if I keep working on myself.
I’m sad a lot cuz have clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder. But something that helps a lot is bathing, doing small tasks to build my confidence/momentum and reminding myself it’s just temporary and the low feelings will pass. Not drinking helps too.
Learning about how sex and sobriety intersect and how to be more chill about sex and relationships. Aka having sex for the right reasons and not freaking out if I don’t get my way / if there’s a miscommunication. I really value and trust my partner but my tendency is to freak out and shut down if I feel rejected in the slightest. Realizing more and more that I have a living problem as well as a drinking problem, and learning how to cope is the biggest challenge I face day to day. Just coping with challenges, relationships, emotions, daily stressors. I had really poor coping skills when I was drinking heavily, and I’m just now starting to really establish new habits and coping strategies / activities. Like the aforementioned bathing / self talk / etc.