Honestly it’s crazy how important sobriety has become to me. Like, staying sober is by far the best thing I do for myself each day. I’m learning how to forgive myself for my really dark alcoholic episodes and how to embrace the me I get to be every day. I get my life back if I stay present and stay sober. I love this gift. I love myself (most of the time). This is huge progress. A year and a half ago, I wanted to die. My hangovers were so dark and so extreme and so scary. I don’t have to live like that anymore.
I’m working on currently:
Decided I was done with weed in July 2017 and haven’t had alcohol since December 2016. Made a choice to approach things with total sobriety. Aka lost my right to any substance. Feelin good. ☀️🌸👽✌️
Working through a recovery program. Step 2 is about believing in a higher power and that a higher power can restore us to sanity. Going through a checklist of questions about my religious / spiritual upbringing – i realize there’s a lot of disconnection and fear in my former relationship with God / any sort of higher power.
I’m really interested in how others cultivate a spiritual practice in and out of AA. And especially outside of organized religion.