Honestly it’s crazy how important sobriety has become to me. Like, staying sober is by far the best thing I do for myself each day. I’m learning how to forgive myself for my really dark alcoholic episodes and how to embrace the me I get to be every day. I get my life back if I stay present and stay sober. I love this gift. I love myself (most of the time). This is huge progress. A year and a half ago, I wanted to die. My hangovers were so dark and so extreme and so scary. I don’t have to live like that anymore.

I’m working on currently:

• patience
• boundaries
• not obsessing online (whether it’s looking up people from my past or just in general – less screen time)
• steering away from codependent tendencies
• meditation
• prayer / spirituality
• semi regular exercise
• staying open
• being present

Working through a recovery program. Step 2 is about believing in a higher power and that a higher power can restore us to sanity. Going through a checklist of questions about my religious / spiritual upbringing – i realize there’s a lot of disconnection and fear in my former relationship with God / any sort of higher power.

I’m really interested in how others cultivate a spiritual practice in and out of a 12 step program. And especially outside of organized religion.